By Umme Hamza
Some four years ago, I was going through extreme hardship because of certain issues related to my son. In despair, I started waking up for Tahajjud (late night prayers) when I heard that Dua made in Tahajjud never goes unanswered. I cried all night in front of Allah (swt) to help my son and me during these hard times!
And what do you think happened next? Nothing! Nothing at all! Our difficult times continued. It shook my belief that Allah (swt) cares. I began thinking that Allah (swt) only helps those who are good Muslims. I wasn’t a good Muslim. I came to Allah (swt) only when I needed Him so He was not going to help me.
A life-changing experience occurred during those difficult days. My aunt who lived abroad came to visit us. She used to visit a lot of relatives, some of whom were living below average living standards. She said to my mother that when she returns to the US, she would regularly send some money for these relatives on monthly basis. They sat together and discussed the idea several times before she departed.
My aunt returned and sent money two months later. My mother made different envelopes of money for five different relatives they had chosen to help. She asked me to drive her to deliver the money. It was in the first house that I heard a story which shook me to the core and significantly changed my perspective about Allah (swt).
The first house belonged to Aunt Safia. She was an old widow with three married daughters. She said, “I had borrowed ten thousand rupees from an old friend of mine for the wedding of my last daughter. I had asked her to give me a year to return the money. I thought I would be able to save up the amount by that time. The deadline passed last month. I still didn’t have the amount. My friend called yesterday and said she needed the money. I didn’t know what to do. I told her to come next week, but I didn’t know where I was going to get that big of an amount. So I turned to my last resort. I sat on my prayer mat and prayed like I never had prayed before. I said to Allah (swt): ‘You are my Creator and you are also my Provider. I will not leave this mat until you grant me what I ask for. I have nowhere else to go but you.’ And look, here you are with the money!”
I looked closely and observed that she really was sitting on her prayer mat. She asked Allah (swt) to provide for her and He did! He provided her from a door she didn’t know existed.
But this is not what shook me. What really made me fall in love with Allah (swt) was the fact that Safia Aunty started praying for the money she needed just this morning but Allah (swt) had been arranging for the fulfilment of her Dua three months earlier. She didn’t know she would be asking this Dua today but He knew. And He had already laid plans for her to receive what she needed. He cared! He really did!
The knowledge that Almighty was always behind me, not only aware of my every need but also taking care of them, made me strong at heart because I knew then that I can overcome any obstacle in life with such a great backup. It was an easy road ahead.
This was the second finalist story in A Life Changing Experience, a short story writing competition organized by Hiba Magazine